lumpy at!
so vexed! =/

AAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! give me a place to scream out loud and let my emotions run free!!! any suggestions? HIEUUU if you were here you would get the biggest smacking from me, seriously. you just totally totally don't understand my needs and wants. i need lotsa attention. and what do you do? play co. is that game really sooo great, soooo important? do you even love me... you say you do but that's like jsut words. you don't convince me. you don't show it. wha tyou show me is that you don't really give a damn about this whole thing. maybe you do love me, but i'm not all that important. or maybe you're jsut plain dumb, you don't get what i mean, don't know what i want, don't know what i need. i'm feeling so scrwed up inside right now, all these mixed emotions. it's like, shoul di jsut let you go? coz' with each day, we're losing everything bit by bit... and the weird thing is... you don't seem to realise/acknowledge it. i'm the one whos thinking about all these stuff, so maybe i'm being over-sensitive, or i'm over-reacting? or both? but i don't think so. you're kinda reclusive, you don't give a damn about me much... if you have co everything's fine and dandy. when i need you most... you upset me. and what can is ay? whatever i say, youw ill jsut say sweet stuff- not stuff that keeps me satisfied, but stuff that keeps me happy for a moment... i need stuff that really answers to my needs, not a quick fix. now all the quick fix have jumped right up in front of me and they're slapping me so hard i'm falling. everything's just attacking me from all sides now. i'm reeling from the pain >.< (drama yes? that's just me. deal with it.) anyways... hieuuuu i really wanna talk to you about all these feelings pent up inside of me, but like each time i try, something goes wrong or you gtg or something. it's just real crap. you don't understand how much it's affecting me. on the other hand, i don't want you to think you've got the upper hand. like, i've thought of breaking up coz the pain is too much to take. i don't know how much longer i can take this before i fall to pieces. i really want you to listen and have a real heart-to-heart talk with me... convince me you love me. i've said this soooo many times. i really need something big from you now. really >.<

you lucked out at 11:40 PM

i wanna be with you* :)

my left eye hurts o_0

my left eye hurts now... like something inside but not? weird... hmmm... i wonder why? anyways... i think we're alright now :) he messaged me first when i went online in the morning =x yay? haha ok so today i went to take pictures of buildings for the project... and freddy was so showing attitude. it's like whateverrrr. coz i figured take more better and he was like -_-". sooo when i reached home talked to hieu awhile, went to sleep, woke up, talk to hieu, studied way little... hahaha so dead T_T i hope i remember the stuff man. don't fall outta my head till after monday!>.< pigu ="x">
from now on i have to sleep early. seriously. my face is breaking out >.<

i lay in bed
and think of you
the times we spent
the good, the bad.
i make a wish
a wish,
to be with you.
right by your side
that's where i'll stay
if ever there's a chance you come my way :)


you lucked out at 10:08 PM

i wanna be with you* :)

help! >.<

ewww i think this is too red what colour should i use i have no idea with the html coding on this template... i have to rely on the font colours in the post ewww!!! someone help me! >.<>

you lucked out at 11:27 PM

i wanna be with you* :)

treading on rough waters... WHY IS MY TITLE IN PINKISH RED >.<

oooh first post... not a happy one pffft.

hmmm, i've been quarrelling with hieu these past few days... over trivial stuffs. not a good thing. i already spend so little time talking with him... it's just that, i don't know. maybe i'm over-sensitive. like now! i know i overreacted, but these few days he's been not very nice, and i just don't wanna give in anymore. i'm the one msging and talking to him, saying i'm sorry talk to me and stuff, that used to be him. i don't wanna be the one always giving in. this time i'm taking my stand. =/ he's leaving in 10 minutes... and he hasn't msged me. it's funny, i'm wrong, but just coz' he's been mean these few days, i don't want to give in. and the past few days i've been giving in. so yea... i'm stubborn now :) i miss that part of me. i am so not someone to push around -_- i don't even know what's happening now. we need to really talk about us and he's been avoiding that, i brought that up like twice and he said he got to go... twice. which wasn't an excuse but... argh. point is... i want him to convince me we can last. at the rate we're going... we don't have much to say. he doesn't wanna say anything nad when i say stuff, he's like... ok. like what the heck? pffft. i don't know what's going through his mind. someone help me? -_-" ooooh and i so need to see how he looks like! i think i'm pretty shallow. you can't be ugly =x well not ugly ugly. like average? i mean... everyone's like that no? :) ah. he's leaving. he's not msging me. he's determined to take this to the next level... kuku.!
oooh he left... and all he said was: bye im going to class
oooh this is bad. real bad. it's war. hmph.

what's going on...
let me into your world...
let me know you love me...
that i mean so much.

you lucked out at 11:07 PM

i wanna be with you* :)

candi :)
i love my cookie, hieu :)
i love eating eating mushy marshmallows, they taste wayyy good :) i like little pony, care bears and sailor moon, my heroes :)
as you can see i love :), the smiley face. and when at home, i'm a total slob. mess everywhere. no table manners. no nothing. ultimate relaxation! muAhahha =D i fear loneliness :(

fellow earthlings
f r e d d y
s a r a

i miss hieu! and i'm sooo tired =/
i got all As for the tests =D

wishes* & dreams*
oooh i wanna be where hieu is :(
i'm going to grow my hair out... i've decided i don't suit short hair too well. they won't stay when styled =/ give me 2-3 months! ahhh so far away >.

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